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The past two or three days have been difficult. In the grocery I wanted to maim people and small children, especially the ones with those annoying little carts that bump into everything, including...
View ArticleBeing sober, 1 month in
I was just talking with someone about being sober. What I found coming up for me today reminds me of childbirth. You know how fucking painful it is, how in transition, you’re like…NEVER AGAIN! I...
View ArticleDivorce isn’t as easy as I thought
I don’t go out anymore. I go to bed. If it’s 11pm, chances are I am either in bed or heading that way. So, when my soon-to-be ex-husband offers me to go out, I say no thanks. So, then, if I am in...
View Articlecrying alone, surrounded by strangers
I’m at clinic all day, sitting with pregnant women and their families, taking blood pressures, drawing blood samples, listening to fetal heart tones…and pretending everything is OK. I’m trying all day...
View ArticleThe plan was a “friendly” divorce
I’m finding myself in the depths of emotions with no where that I want to turn. Some friends call, but I don’t answer. I need to save all my energy for when the kids come home, so I can maintain a...
View ArticleLetting go of pain
I went all kinds of crazy last night. I felt pushed to my limit and I nearly broke. I’ll spare you the details, but I think it was a necessary catharsis toward empowerment. This divorce is so...
View Articlegive me a break
I feel so stuck between wanting a break and having to forge onward. My house is a disaster. It’s dirty and messy and I haven’t cooked a decent meal for my family in weeks. My school work is suffering...
View Article#FIA
I had a difficult day with my ex yesterday. He was relentlessly hassling me about lots of parts of my personality. He doesn’t like that a girlfriend gifted me a hand embroidered pillow that reads,...
View ArticleDrunk again
I got drunk again last night. Third day in a row of waking up and taking Advil in hopes that I don’t have a headache and panic attacks. I have got to NOT drink tonight. I have to say though, that I...
View ArticleThis just in: Teen daughter hates mother for everything
I took it easy last night/yesterday. I did have a few beers and some wine, but throughout the football day and into the movie night. So, I never really got drunk or buzzed. Which, if you love to...
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